This page is made in collaboration with Hercule Paris. Hercule Paris is a brand new clothing line created by my friend Pierre Lecomte. I obviously have to show some love to thriving up and comers, like Pierre. His shirts are the HIGEST quality and so comfortable to vibe out to, no matter what your profession is. Visit the brand new web store which just dropped the first shirt in their collection, "The Grand Voyager". You may see it pop up here again, in a different form, sometime soon. As the brand slogan goes, we're nobody doing everybody... And I can totally agree with that motto, yes we are.
"Are You Gonna Go My Way"
Another week on this journey towards the exit sign. When I started writing my thoughts about leaving California, I made it clear that it wasn't going to be easy. Here we are with another weird wrench thrown my way, via the great Bay Area power outage of 2019. Literally everywhere in the Bay Area, MINUS SF, has no power. The California PG&E officials said that they would shut off everything because of the "fire winds". It's for our safety I guess. But if it was for our safety, I think they are forgetting the fact that there are sick people out there and they may need power for their illnesses. But I guess that's not important to them. I just hope that they get this done and out of the way, because they said this could last for up to 5 days... uhh NO THANKS. I'm literally sitting here at the book shop writing my thoughts in this diary, because I can't access any internet at the house. BART is working, so that's good, at least i'll be able to travel back into the core of the city to get WiFi and charge my phone. The city of SF has power, anywhere outside of it does not. Lucky for them, they don't have to deal with this PG&E mess. But we all can't afford to pay that obscure rent. It literally is cheaper to live in New York, that was one of the main selling points to get me to want to move there. Anyways, my phone is already in limbo having to be charged on my macbook, while I write. Hopefully it will get past 50% soon. I was out shooting yesterday and my anxiety came to hang out with me for the day. I shoot all the time in SF, but tell me why i've never heard the loud emergency warning on Tuesdays. I literally thought it was the end of the world. It was the exact same loud noise that you can hear in the American Horror Story Apocalypse premiere. It freaked the shit out of me! Then I find out at the very last minute about this long form power outage. I was sure as hell taken by surprise. My sister and I pushed on through and finished up our shoots. I would have stayed with her for awhile, but I had treatment today, so I had to be back over the bridge. Oh how I wish I could have stayed there. But i'm trying my best to heal. I was out this morning trying to find extra battery chargers for my iPhone. I didn't find any because they were all sold out. My knee cracked though. It was pretty loud and gave me some sharp discomfort. I had to go to treatment right after, and that helped a lot. I swear i've been good. I've been resting, but with the sudden change of weather, I guess my body will always feel the aftermath of everything I just went through. I'm not healed yet, I know that. I just pray I will be soon. I just pray life will go my way. It hasn't been, and it has been frustrating living between a rock and a hard place. I am dealing with it though. The treatment does help, it doesn't show long lasting affects, but the more I get it, the less I feel the pain. I swear once I started seeing the chiropractor, going to therapy, going to mental therapy, it has elevated me to a whole new level. What I mean by that is, I swear to god, I have so much more edge. I feel like I kinda have to. I got hit by a car and then I flew off that car. I thought it wouldn't, but that changes a person forever. I was told this whole 90's thing that I have going on is good for my mind. It is keeping me balanced to rise back up and pick myself up from the harsh landing. It has felt good though. As I have to go through relearning my body and healing from something so traumatic, I need to do that in a way that is going to make me feel comfortable while doing it. Honestly, regardless of what happened, this is the most I have felt like myself. I’m not talking about my old self, but this new me that has been created via the moment I landed right back on the ground. I guess every survivor has an edge, how I use that edge to my advantage, we'll just have to see if it goes my way.
Photographer: Courtney Johnson
What I'm Wearing: Shirt - Hercule Paris, Pants - Uniqlo, Beanie - Adam Levine Collection, Shoes - Lugz, Flannel - Pac Sun
Every post I will include the song that inspired me to build a post around it's title
Stories From My Life - CHAPTER 16: THE FINAL CHAPTER
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Stories From My Life
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