"Fight On, Fighter"
FINALLY, i’m done. 100 (111) days later, I have completed 100 days of sweat. Yes, I got hit by a car. Yes, I had to sit 11 days out. Yes, I did the last 25 days WHILE in pain AND in ongoing treatment. Yes, I am supposed to be resting. But hey, I lost 13 pounds and a waistline. So at least that happened. However, I DO NOT BELIEVE in not finishing what I start. When I start something, I always finish it. I took on this challenge on a whim. I chose to join in with everyone who wanted to be apart of this from Yes Theory’s youtube community. Back in June I watched the video that they uploaded and got so inspired to try it out for myself. Why did I do this? I have constantly preached how I want to live my life seeking discomfort. I felt this was a great first avenue to tap into seeking discomfort post my 24th birthday. I did this for me, to help me do something that I didn’t think I could do for 100 days. I really didn't think I could workout for 100 days straight. I did it to strengthen my mind and make myself believe that something like this, which I thought would be impossible, possible. I also saw the bigger picture, I wanted to do this challenge for more than myself. I did this to show everyone who has been battling their battles, from illnesses, to personal demons, that you can, WE CAN, do things. No matter what we have faced, or are facing. We all know I basically spent 5 years in the hospital for my eye. To spend 5 years and then to get hit by a car, only to end up back in the hospital receiving treatment again, in a whole new way, ain't that something. I’ve lived through hell, I know what it is like. I'm always reminded of the dark path of hell, and what that looks like. I wanted to show people like me, who have these traumatizing diseases and injures, YOU CAN GET UP. YOU CAN DO SOMETHING YOU NEVER THOUGHT YOU COULD DO. I always knew that, but I never tested my limits until I flew on that plane to New York and did this physical challenge called 100 days of sweat. Hell, it became an actual challenge when I had to figure out ways to complete the last 25 days, with the current state of my body. It was very rough to workout, but I did it, I made myself do it, so I can feel fulfilled. I just wanted to be able to say that I finished it, and now I can say that. I want to, and will continue to do my best to be that poster boy for people who may need that. I've said this before, but it became even more relevant when I took on this challenge. When I got sick, I needed someone like me, to get me through. I didn’t have that. So I made a promise to myself to BE that person I needed, for all these people who are out there. I wanted to make people like me, proud, and hopefully, inspire them to live with more love and less fear. Yes Theory's motto is love over fear. That is something I want to live by and stand by, and adapt it in my own way. I’m at a very interesting phase in my life, post getting hit by a car. As you have been reading, i'm learning to readapt to everything as my body and mind heals from a traumatic event. It did not hit me how traumatizing this was, until the days went on and the pain creeped in. I've made it very clear, it's been rough. But I can't stress how grateful I am to have my doctors working closely with me on my mind and my body. Now that I can check off completing this challenge, I can finally rest my body and heal more. I am so proud of myself that I completed this, NO MATTER WHAT I have been through and what i’m going through. I saw this through, like everything else that I do.
This is a huge life experience under my belt. This is something I will always look back on and be able to say, I did that. Would I do it again? Hell fucking YES! I am planning on it, as soon as my body heals. I want to do it again, and hopefully this time, I don't get hit by a car. If i'm being honest, as I write this, i'm paying the price for finishing up the last 25 days. My back hurts, my knee hurts, my foot hurts, but i'm dealing with it. Anyways, the amount of pride that I have in myself, trumps all of these painful feelings. I look out and see the beautiful Land's End backdrop. I'm in pain, but i'm at peace with my mind, knowing that I finished what I started. I hope I gave people and will continue to give people the courage to step out of the boundaries that our minds put up. It may seemsilly, but I inspired myself with this. I finished something that I started outside of my comfort zone. Now, I have to apply the lessons I learned from a challenge, into an even bigger challenge, aka my life. As I continue to see, anything is possible. Just don’t think about, you just do it , and you’ll see. Everyone has been saying i'm a survivor, I am, and I will always be one. No matter what tries to bring me down, I'm gonna finish what I start, always. As I keep saying to myself, fight on, fighter. And so, I will.
Photographer: Courtney Johnson
What I'm Wearing: All workout gear - Nike
Stories From My Life - CHAPTER 16: THE FINAL CHAPTER
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