Breakups. It's a human thing. Sometimes for the worst, sometimes for the better. Either way we come out of it a better person. For the first time in 3 years, i'm single again. I'm literally going out into the world, on my own, like in a literal way now. Why am I telling you this? Because it is important to honor what you just went through. For some people it may seem like a wasted amount of time, but it's something that you'll always have as you move forward. It was important for me to end on better terms, rather than in a messy way. I have no regrets loving P. I'm so grateful for that time in my life. I'm also grateful that we are on the same page when it comes to me going back out into the world and doing something for myself. I love, love. I love being in love. But there comes a time where you really have to choose what is best for yourself. For me, and for us, what is best, is for me to go live an honest and open life. I learned a lot from loving a person for 3 years. Not just that, but really giving it my all. All that experience has poured into my heart and shown me that I capable of being loved, and capable of loving someone so much. In our lifetime, it is important for us to love and be loved. Without love, we are not human. I don't feel like recalling the bad times, I just want to honor all the little moments that made me feel so special. I now take those little moments and turn them into something so beautiful, that I never could have imagined. All these lessons that I've learned over the years, i'm packaging them up and getting them ready to showcase to the world. My main goal is to make the biggest impact I can make. I'm so fortunate that I got to love someone the way that I did. The love will always be apart of me, wherever I go. It lives in a corner in the history of my heart. Everything is happening all at once. I got hit by the car, the weeks of treatment, got an apartment, started packing, on the road to moving, and ending this relationship that I invested 3 years of my life to. It's been back to back. The thing that sticks out to me though, is all the love and care that continues to be put into it all. I wanted to make sure that hate didn't drown out the end of my relationship. Because I did love him, apart of me always will. You know that saying that everyone always says, if you love someone, set them free. I'm glad we can set ourselves free. Otherwise we would tarnish something beautiful. Both of us do not deserve that. I hope while i'm out in the world, he watches the love he gave me, grow into something we could have never imagined. Our song, "Only Love", even post break up, will always be ours. It's engraved forever. I take that message of the song and look at it as growth. It's a love song, but the words "Only Love" stand for so much more. Because as we end this relationship, I have only love, for p. I hope that I as I go on my own journey, he finds his dream and lets the love that I gave him, pour into it and grow into something beautiful. It's bittersweet, all of these goodbyes are bittersweet, but they are so crucial in order for someones heart to grow and become the strongest it can be. I don't know what the future holds for me in my private romantic life, but what I do know, is that i'll be able to love someone so much, because of the love I experienced. No matter where I go in life, it's only love, it's only love.
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