CHAPTER 1: Welcome To New York
Entry #2: "Nothing On You"
As the day turned to night, I made my way over to the heights. It's packed in NYC. Everyone is headed to Time's Square to watch the ball drop. It was so packed that the MTA kicked everyone off the subway because they had to shut it down. I'm still new here, I kinda freaked out. I didn't know where I was. All I knew is I had to get out of there. So I called lyft to take a car to my destination. I arrived at Jesus's place a little later than I intended. But, I made it. I'm so glad I got to be with my brothers for NYE. It's a nice change of shift for me. I got to meet Jesus's side of the family and I settled in and ate along with them. It was a good time surrounded by beautiful souls. As we counted down to midnight, Jesus, Julio, and I said goodbye to this shitty year, and hello to the great unknown that is 2020. We left Jesus's house and went over to Julio's aunt's place for a little after-party. Never in my life have I seen a more loving and lit NYE party that late in the evening. It was a blast. Everyone was dancing and just celebrating love and life. I was getting a tiny bit tipsy, not a lot though. I was sober enough to remember all these details. The boys and I hung out with Julio's brother, Alex, and sister, Jenny. I love those 2 as well. I met them on Christmas, and we just clicked. They are the best, and I'm fortunate enough to call them family now, as well. Julio's uncle kept handing us drinks, so the boys started to get more drunk than I was. We figured it was a good time to leave the party and head back to Jesus's party. So we said our goodbyes and took a short, but loud walk back to Jesus's place. By loud, I mean, we sang "Nothing On You" by B.O.B and Bruno Mars on the street at 2:30 am. Out of everything from that night, that moment there, I think that solidified our bond even more. I'll now always look back at that moment, as one of the happiest moments of my life. I'll also look at it as the starting point of the calm before the storm we are about to create this year. When we got back to Jesus's place, everyone was asleep. We didn't want to wake anyone, so we deadass walked back over to Julio's aunt's house. When we showed up, Alex and Jenny had left. So we just hung out and rang in the first hours of the New Year, watching everyone dance. As the last of the party continued to party, Julio decided to proclaim that 2020 will now be the year of JULIUS. Now you see where the name comes from, lol. Hey, its a fancy name and we are about to do some fancy things in 2020, lol. As it got later, Jesus was already falling asleep on the couch. So I walked him back home, got him there safely, and spent a night at his place. As my brother went to sleep, I laid down and felt nothing but grateful for the fun night I just had. It meant a lot to me, to be surrounded by people, I now call family. I never had a New Year's Eve like this one. I don't know if I ever will have one again. What I do know is, I'm grateful that I got to end such a bad year, on such a happy note. It's all thanks to my brothers. That song may be about girls, but I interpret it this way now - Nothing on you, means nothing on our bond, our brotherhood, and the greatness we are about to share with the world.
Photographer: Alex Chavez
What I'm Wearing: Jacket - Vans, Hoodie - Seek Discomfort, Pants - Uniqlo, Shoes - Vans, Hat - H&M, Glasses - Rayban
Once Upon A Time...
There was a boy who accepted the world. He was lost for a while, that was out of his control. You see, he grew up in some tough situations. There's a lot, but we're not gonna talk about all that. Let's just recap... When he was 19 at the rise of his music career, it ended in an abrupt halt. He got diagnosed with a disease called Glaucoma. He went from singing in the studio to getting 7 major eye surgeries. Then when life once again hit a rough patch, he got hit by a car and almost died. He turned his back on the world, but somehow, in time, opened his heart to the idea of it. Once his heart opened, he fell in love. From that love he learned and continues to learn the hard lesson of choosing yourself first, instead of drowning, trying to save a sinking ship over and over. He let down every wall and let his loved ones in on a deeper level. He did new things, not just normal things, but things that he would never have tried. He chose love over fear, and that's what brings him to where he is right now. From a small town called Fairfield to the Santa Monica heat of Los Angeles, to the twin peak lights shining through San Fransisco. It all lead him down the yellow brick road, to the mad brick, big apple, New York, New York. Over the years he dreamed of being in the city of dreams. After every high, every low, and after he reaccepted the world, he's ready to take his place and do what he was always born to do. He's ready to right the wrongs, and take all the good that came from the bad and make something new out of it. In a beautiful, but delicate world, filled with so much negativity, he chooses to stand above the rest and bring reality back to the drowned out, auto-tuned song that the world has become. There are lovers, there are dreamers... and then there are those in the middle, where lovers and dreamers meet. So who is this boy? Well, duh, it's me. I'm Roydom Lucian... and this is my story.
CHAPTER 1: Welcome To New York
Entry #1: "The Lovers. The Dreamers... And Me."
I ain't gonna lie. My first few days here were SHITTY. From the hot mess that is my apartment, to getting the flu. It was rough. I don't regret leaving California, but I sure as hell regret what I arrived into. I wasn't even able to enter my building until some godforsaken hour. I'd rather not talk about anymore of it, because my head is in such a better place now, regardless of my very much still shitty apartment. I have to remind myself, it's not about where I live. I am here in New York City. I took this leap, on my own, WITH this illness, to a city that is so far from who I used to be. I'm not gonna lie, it can get lonely. It was at first, because no one really gave me the time of day, except for one. When I came to visit New York in my last life, I made a brother named Jesus. Yes, like Jesus, god’s son, lol. Oh Jesus. Not only has he become my best friend, but he's more than that. He's my brother and he's my family. He took me in when the world tried to shut me out as I banged loudly on the front door of my apartment building at 3am. When I met him in March 2019, it was god's gift to me. He's not just my brother, but he's honestly the most talented rapper in New York. I mean that. All these years i've been looking for people like me, people who have voices that have important things to say. That's Jesus, that's me. You put us together and the possibilities are endless. On day 3 of my new life here, he introduced me to his cousin Julio. You may see me refer to him as Julius. It's an inside joke, you'll figure it out as this story goes on. Anyways, thanks to my brother Jesus, Julio also has grown into one of my best friends and brothers. In a short amount of time too. Deadass, I would be so lost if J never introduced me to Julio. He has shown me around, introduced me to his friends, his beautiful family even took me in as a family member, heck our convos have gone real deep, so we're bonded for life now. Both of them, together, accepted me right away, and turned my shitty arrival experience into a life I could only dream of, from the hospital hallways I once roamed.
As Christmas day approached and I headed to Julius's, I started thinking to myself on the subway. Man, how lucky am I to be here in New York City. After all that I've been through, I somehow managed to escape the remains of the tower I was locked inside of. Sure, I came to New York to grow and expand upon myself. But let's be real, I came here, because I know I can get back to doing what I'm meant to do. What is that? That's my music. I know in my heart, my songs were meant to play out loud over this city. I know I have to eventually go back to LA, but New York has to be my first stop, on a journey that I know will lead me back there. I felt it in my bones, in my heart, and my soul, when I was here in this city, the last time. Deadass, I still feel it right now. I came here to create a bond with likeminded people. To create a unit, a brotherhood, a sisterhood, a family, all of it. I came here because I know it is possible. I did all that I could in SF. I did all that I could as the man that I used to be. Being sick for so long, I never got to prove myself. I'm here to prove to everyone, but mostly MYSELF, that living life and fulfilling your destiny is possible. When I was really sick, I had no one like me, to look up to. I'm not looking to be a role model, but I am looking to make an impact. Yes, I want the Grammy, the fans, the touring life, all that good stuff. More than anything, I want to make my words, my story, I want all of it to make an impact. That way, if someone ever feels the way I felt, when my life turned to hell, they can say, if Roydom Lucian can make it through, and rise above it all, then we can too. So, sure, my new life in NYC started a little off-key, but, I know myself. I know that in a city filled with lovers and dreamers, there is me... and I'm different than most people. They haven't gone through what I have gone through, to get here. I have these seeds planted within the brotherhood that is growing, the new experiences I am going through, all these changes happening daily. What that becomes, I guess we'll just have to find out together. As the A-line headed to my destination, the prerecorded message on the train speaker said: "please be seated"... We're in for a wild ride, everyone. Welcome to, New York.
Love, Roydom Lucian
Photographer: Chris Lopez
What I'm Wearing: Coat - Alfani, Shirt - Hugo Boss, Undershirt - H&M, Jeans - Levis, Boots - Doc Martins, Necklace - Seek Discomfort