CHAPTER 4: The Times They Are A-Changing
Entry #34: "Catching Vibes"
Well, we made it halfway through this weird-ass year. I'm not going to say 2020 is a bad year. Stop saying that. It's not bad. It's simply an eye-opener for people who were not seeing straight. Don't like that, then tough love. We can't always get what we want. We just have to continue to find ways to re-adapt. As I begin to feel more like myself after spending 2 months in agony with sinus and ear infections, I'm ready to catch some vibes again. When quarantine started, I was a whole mood. I'm ready to bring that mood back into my life after completing my 100 days of sweat. Being back in California has brought out something in me. I guess mixed with my New York persona, I have created yet another evolution of myself. Even when I was not feeling 100, I was craving the early quarantine vibes that were pouring out of my soul. In this weird state of the world, I need to have some balance. Of course, I'm still in the fight for the greater good for my health and injustice in this world, and also the safety of the country. Corona is still alive and rising. It would be calming down, but people still continue to not take this seriously. I swear, I passed by a restaurant and it was so PACKED. No social distancing whatsoever. Sadly, it has come to this. I just continue to do my best to stay away from these places. After getting that Corona test and seeing those people, that is a no for me. I've been writing a lot lately. Since I haven't been able to properly sing for 2 months, everything that I have been wanting to say is finally coming to the surface. As for this diary of mine. I just want some good vibes after these last few interesting months. I hope that I find more ways to empower myself, and therefore empower more of the people who virtually surround me. People gravitate towards the way you present yourself. I've been presenting myself in a certain way and I think that it's making me more well rounded. I finally feel as if I am becoming a whole person. The person that I set out to be when the year started. Unbeknown to myself, I didn't know what kind of vibe I was looking for. It took locking myself up to stay safe from this virus, to finally see bits and pieces of what I want myself to be when the time comes to rise up around people outside of a virtual world.
Photographer: RL BAZA
What I'm Wearing: Shirt & Shorts - H&M, Flannel - Converse, Shoes - Madewell, Hat - UCLA