CHAPTER 4: The Times They Are A-Changing
Entry #52: If I fall
Midway through this week and the days are feeling more and more exhausting as the days go on. At least we finally made it to October first. The time hasn't even changed yet and I already feel as if we have fallen back an hour. It's a weird spot to be in right now. By weird spot, I mean life. Everyone is changing, growing, and physically going through some sort of literal darkness right now. Have I shed some tears over this? Hell yes, absolutely. I find myself crying more and more. They aren't sad tears, more like therapeutic tears. If only I could express how I'm feeling on here. I mean, I already am, but I would love to have that at 100%. I can't though. I'm saving all those words for the songs that I write alongside these pages. Like every season, fall is a transformation. From the weather to the colors, to everything else in between. It's time to fall back and really examine what we want to be moving forward into the cold winter. Or in this case, the first Rona winter. I must not slip away though. I must do my best to keep my head above water. As my sanity is tested by Ms. Rona and all the things she continues to throw my way, I just pray to keep my head up. If I feel like I'm slipping, I will say something. I promise. I do not feel that way right now, but If I do, I will say something. I just hope someone is ready to catch me. Not, saying I want to fall, but, you never know. My mental state is sketchy af lately. I'm a fighter though, and I'm going to pull through. We are going to pull through, okay?
What I'm Wearing: Sweater - Forever 21, Jeans- Levis, Shoes - Madewell