CHAPTER 4: The Times They Are A-Changing
Entry #47: Mood
Now that I'm settling into the fact that I'm going to remain in quarantine for the next few months or however long needed, I need to iron out myself and get me into a comfortable mood. As I said on the entry before this, I started 100 days of sweat again. Honestly, that challenge evens out my mind and makes me feel more in control of myself. The whole fall and winter is going to be uncertain but I am comforted knowing that I will be safe to enjoy whatever form of the holidays we are getting this year. Didn't expect the whole summer to be this weird corona ashy hell, but at least I'll be able to look back at this time in a very somber way. As the days go on, this whole experience becomes an even larger test for my mentality. I'm going to do my best to just breathe and be chill about it. I've been talking to my best friends everyday. That has been helping me hone in on my sanity, because let's face it, I don't know when I will be able to see and experience anything with anyone outside of my family that I live with, for a while. Looking back at the state of mind my mind was in 1 year ago, It was a very different headspace. I guess with Corona and the mass wildfires, my mind has become more cloudy than usual. Rest assured, I'm going to do my best to get back into the mood that the general public loves to see from me. Not just them, but myself. Just cause my mind ain't functioning at 100%, doesn't mean the work I'm doing to my body is not. My body feels good, and I really need to hone in on that. Maybe the growing confidence that I feel for it, can help my mind get stronger and stronger each day. I don't have much else to say right now. I think I am going to experiment keeping some of these entries shorter than others. I want to be able to track the up's and the downs and how my mind releases these thoughts from my head, in whatever way it chooses. Hopefully as the weeks go on, the mood will grow and get me back to where I was when this whole Corona mess started.
What I'm Wearing: Shirt - Vans, Pants - Uniqlo, Shoes - Vans, Mask - Seek Discomfort